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I don't even really know what I would say to you, if I could.
Over the past week I've wanted to scream and cry until you felt bad for me and we fixed things between us.
I wanted to tell you that you're hurting me more than anything in the world and you don't even realize it.  
I've hoped that I'll just move on like you have.  
And some moments I think I can, and that all I want is for you to be happy, and you seem to be.
But then I feel the oh so familiar heart in your stomach feeling of when I see you've talk to her, and I want to cry all over again. So then I do.
I've wanted to tell you why I've been so different lately, because then maybe you wouldn't dislike me so much.
Although I'm pretty sure you've got more interesting things to do then hear me complain.
I've wanted to tell you that all I have thought about lately is you, and that I think we could really make things work if we tried again.
And that I'm sorry for all of the horrible things I've said to you.
But then I remember how mad I am that you moved on, and when you promised me you would wait for me.
And then after that, I remember that I was the one that wanted this for you.
And I feel awful.

So, for this year I'm going to try to take simplistic artistic pictures once every day for 360 days. I hope I can do it-- I'm worried I won't commit.

Your Boy Side
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[ ] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[ ] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[ ] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.
total| 8

Your Girl Side
[/] You wear lip gloss.
[ ] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[/] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[/] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.
total| 14.5

[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an mp3 player/ipod.
[ ] Your parents are still married.
[x] You love your family
[x] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
T 0 T A L| 6

[/] You dress the way you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up..
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to the movies.
T 0 T A L| 10

[ ] You have over 500 friends on facebook.
[x] You have pictures on facebook.
[x] Your parents let you have a facebook.
[ ] You get allowance/loan.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going to college
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[x] You want to do something after school/college
T 0 T A L| 15

[x] You own a car/truck.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your parent(s).
[x] You have never got a failing grade on a report card in your life
[x] You have friends.
[ ] You've never had a detention
T O T A L| 18

[ ] You know what is going on in the world.
[ ] You are happy with your life
[ ] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You don't have any enemies
T O T A L| 22


Total over all| 22
times it by 3 = 67.5

101%+: A+
90-100%: A
80-89%: B
70-79%: C
60-69% D
00-59%: F
Repost saying "I got a ___ in life"

I still find my self wondering what would have happened if we decided to work on our problems.
If you were to change, maybe I could change how I felt.

I still find myself missing you. I still listen every word you say.

But it really doesn't matter.

You've stopped caring.

Now I've got to.